1st VE, 2nd CTG

fuh berdebar siot nak gi check up malam td. dan aku mmg tak letak harapan ape2 time VE sbb aku rasa mcm jalan tak bukak lagi.

so buat CTG mcm biasa. dah pandai baca sendiri hehe. siap paksa ameir tgk berapa % dah contraction??? sbb time tu tetibe baby mengeras, so dari 8% jadi 99% huahauaha. tp takde rasa sakit cuma rasa mengeras jela. buat CTG dalam 10min camtu je so graf pendek jela. nurse dtg dia pakai glove pastu ubat pelincir kot.. cakap kt aku saya nak buat VE ye.

aku : tak sakit kan???

hahaa. dia senyum cakap takkk (dalam hati aku yelah tu) hahaha. kaki suruh tegak, pastu tetibe dia suruh tarik nafas. dalam otak dah set tak sakit ni, aku baru je amik nafas zapppppp dia terus masuk aku terkejut tak sempat buat ape2 aku pegang lengan dia kuat2, sebelah tangan lagi aku tutup mulut aku (drama sgt kan). aku ingatkan dia masuk takdela dalam, ingatkan sekejap jela kan rupanya tidak ye.. dia masuk dalam lagi! pastu mcm cucuk2 korek2 sampai terasa la tang cervix tu (eceh macam tau je cervix kat mana). pastu dah.. dia cakap ok baru 1cm. aku mcm eh?? 1cm. wow impressive ingatkan takde bukaan lgsung. pastu terus mintak maaf sorry ye terpegang tadi hauahua.

turun bawah jumpa dr zul. dia terangkan cakap ok baby aktif takde masalah, contraction pon ada 1kali. aku tanya, ni contraction ke?? sbb yg aku rasa hanyalah baby mengeras (panggg diri sendiri). dia cakap a'ah, kalau contraction betul2 dia rapat2 selang 2min 5min. dia cakap bukaan dah 1.5cm.. a'ah aku tgk kat kertas tu pon nurse tulis 1.5cm. kalau 3cm baru leh warded so baliklah rumah dulu dengan perasaan happy dan lega sikit :)

oh lupa nak cite. yang check up haritu aku ada tanya doktor, kalau baby tak engage lagi boleh ke kuar air ketuban, kuar darah semua tu? doktor cakap boleh. bila aku google pon memang ramai camtu. so tak semestinya bila baby engage je camtu, byk jugak yg baby still floating. mcm asmida n alwani (tetibe petik nama korang kannn) pon sama. sebab bila contraction starts, ia akan push the baby down dan akan engage sendiri masuk laluan itu.

When Will My Baby Engage?

This is completely up to your baby. Yes, first time babies can engage sooner than second or subsequent, but this does not mean that if your baby doesn’t engage before labour starts, that there is a problem. Even for first time mothers, babies can engage at labour, with the early contractions helping to bring them down lower into your pelvis. So there is no formula at all to work this out, just when your baby is ready. It’s nothing to do with your body’s ability to birth or your baby being cheeky! Your baby knows when it’s the right time and will engage when he’s good and ready – so trust your body and trust your baby that they will work in unison when the time is right. Your body is designed to labour, mother nature has it worked out really well, I think we’d be in trouble as a species if our babies didn’t engage and our bodies didn’t go into labour eventually!

isnin ni check up lagi dan kata putus dari doktor la kot. tapi rasanya nak 1minggu lagi. permudahkanlah semuanya, amin.